fighting || week 42

“Every human being needs to know what she's fighting for.” 
― Fredrik Backman, A Man Called Ove  

I am pretty sure fall is my favorite season now. I think it just took me a few years to get here. A few years to really open my eyes enough to notice her beauty and calm. 

We spent a short 24 hours in Bellingham with some of our kids. I need to see them more often. 

“We always think there's enough time to do things with other people. Time to say things to them. And then something happens and then we stand there holding on to words like 'if'.” 
― Fredrik Backman, A Man Called Ove

This is Roxy, we met her on one of our walks. 

“Her laughter catches him off guard. As if it’s carbonated and someone has poured it too fast and it’s bubbling over in all directions. It doesn’t fit at all with the gray cement and right-angled garden paving stones. It’s an untidy, mischievous laugh that refuses to go along with rules and prescriptions.” 
― Fredrik Backman, A Man Called Ove  

It has been a tender week for me. I am a bit off, blue and a bit muddled.  It feels as if I have been fighting myself all week long. My creative mojo has been mislaid and if it were not for this space, I would not have picked up my camera. Which is a good reminder why I do this, 

the farmers market in Bellingham, with my phone 

I want to be color. . . 

“People said Ove saw the world in black and white. But she was color. All the color he had.” 
― Fredrik Backman, A Man Called Ove

I am my biggest roadblock.

Learning a new behavior is hard, but learning to undo the thought patterns, which live inside my head, is even harder. 

“All roads lead to something you were predestined to do.” 
―Fredrik Backman, A Man Called Ove  
“Ove had never been asked how he lived before he met her. But if anyone had asked him, he would have answered that he didn’t.” 
― Fredrik Backman, A Man Called Ove

My apple butter and Brandon's sauerkraut and canned fish. Yea, my mom and dad are both smiling big time. That boy..... 

Yesterday's harvest from the garden. 

“One of the most painful moments in a person’s life probably comes with the insight that an age has been reached when there is more to look back on than ahead.” 
― Fredrik Backman, A Man Called Ove  

I am a little more than halfway through A Man Called Ove.  I highly recommend it. It has made me laugh and cry a bit. I see a bit of myself in this man; hard and set in my ways, closed off a bit to joy. But I am working on opening myself up. Some weeks are just harder than others.

How was your week? 

“Because Ove, as Parvaneh had soon realized, was the sort of man who, when he was not quite certain where he was going, just carried on walking straight ahead, convinced that the road would eventually fall into line.” 
―Fredrik Backman, A Man Called Ove