knee deep in weeds

notes on a simple life


“Slow down, take time, allow yourself to be wildly diverted from your plan. People are the soul of the place; don't forget to meet them and enjoy their company as you explore a place.” ~ 
― David duChemin, Within the Frame: The Journey of Photographic Vision

I have spent some time re-reading some of my past post, even going back to my former blog, which is now private, to gather some inspiration. I seem to have the most to say when I am struggling with something. Words just ache to get out, and I say the same things over and over, just in different modes. I find this is also the case with meaningful self portraits. It is a kind of therapy, a release, a form of healing for sure. Both words and self portraits are coming slow to me right now and I am okay with that. 

I have written about the peacefulness which has come over me as of late; the idea that I can free myself from past expectations and move beyond what use to be and try new things. These ah-ha moments, which have come to me later in life, are like a breath of fresh air and I find my mind in a bit of a flurry these days. I lie awake at night thinking and planning and for the first time in years, it is not worry that keeps me awake, but rather scheming up goodness. 

My daughter-law and I spent a few hours at the farmers market in Bellingham on Saturday. It was lovely, so much beautiful produce already. It is always so fun to spend time with just her. What an amazing woman she has become, full of self confidence and beauty.  I took my camera and talked myself out of buying so many things, mostly because I really don't need any more things. 

Recently I signed up for Kim Klassen's The Studio space and  I wanted a few of these spoons just to use in photos, but I resisted. . . for now.  I am finding the stillness in The Studio very relaxing and I am learning so much about my camera; trying out different settings and learning what my different lenses can do. It really is very fun. Kim is an amazing teacher and her style is spot on. I have learned so much in just a short time, but what I take away most days is that fact that I need to slow down. 

I have discovered that this is a bit difficult for me, not only when I have my camera in my hand, but in much of day to day life. I rush to get dinner done, I rush when I am out in the garden, I even rush at the library. I think it comes from years and years of raising children, working and really never having enough time. So I hurry. And with my camera I often set my buttons once, point and shoot. I don't take enough time to think about light, or shadows or composition because I tell myself I can correct those things in post processing. I don't take enough time to change my settings, to try something new or different, to experiment. This is really obvious if someone is with me, waiting as I take photos. I worry they are watching me or are bored and so I hurry. But I also do this when I am alone because I am just not use to having the luxury of time, and I am eager and overzealous and want to get to that next step. 

But with still life I have to take my time, in fact that is what it is all about; being still and taking time. Taking time and being deliberate about my image, moving the light, or the props, trying different camera settings and thinking about what it is I want to capture and how I can best go about shooting it. There is a rhythm to it that is soothing and peaceful. It forces me to slow down and really think. And I really am enjoying the process. 

I am working on applying that deliberateness when I am out and about with my camera too.  I move around, look at the light, and play with my settings. Saturday I spoke to many of the vendors about all the goodness in their stalls, connecting with them and asking questions. They opened up and were proud and seemed happy I was there shooting away. I also find that I don't take as many photos, but the photos I take are more of what I am after. 

She really just wanted to wag her tail at us, and get a pet. But she did slow down and pose for me with a smile after a bit of coxing. Seems she is just like me; working hard at slowing down, eager to get on with it! 

i hope your week is off to a good start, 
thanks for stopping by,