knee deep in weeds

notes on a simple life

re-entry || week 20

"I want to lay up like that, to float unstructured, without ambition or anxiety. I want to inhabit my life like a porch." 
— Rebecca Wells, Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood

my week is full. . . 
there is a trip to Bellingham for a birthday celebration,
where everyone arrives by bike (except us) 
loaded down with food and drinks to share.
we sing to her and eat vegan coconut cream pie
and i feel blessed because she makes my boy so happy! 

"Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You." 
— Dr. Seuss, Happy Birthday to You! 

the next day i pack and head for Northern Idaho.
i look forward to five days with a close friends, just the two of us,
in her childhood cabin, which she just rebuilt. 

we sleep in, take naps, drink a little bit of wine and eat simple.
but mostly we talk. . . the list too long to even write about here. 
each night i a go to bed a bit more centered,
a bit more reconnected with myself,
and i sleep like a baby. . . 

"You know how some people, when they're together, they somehow make you feel more hopeful? Make you feel like the world is not the insane place it really is?" 
— Rebecca Wells, Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood

three things: 
coffee taste better in Northern Idaho
we don't get dressed before noon
i wake up the last morning ready to come home
(missing him and the dog) 

years ago we discover, after years of friendship, that we both had spent
every summer of our youth in Northern Idaho,
(at different lakes, not too far apart). 
we fished with our fathers (her for bass, me for trout and perch)
learned to drive boats, waterskied and helped clean those fish. 
the cold water and the woods were our playgrounds.
she rebuilt her family cabin, while all i am left with are memories, 
so i feel blessed she shares. 

"I wish I knew then what I know now - and still had those thighs!" 
— Rebecca Wells, Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood
"Life is short, but it is wide. Genevieve Whitman taught me that." 
— Rebecca Wells, Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood

re-entry is a bit hard. . . 
but he and the dog are happy to see me! 
and, the feeling is mutual. 


“A dog can’t think that much about what he’s doing, he just does what feels right.” 
― Barbara Kingsolver, Animal Dreams

how was your week?