knee deep in weeds

notes on a simple life

a day early || week 25

"How are you tending to the emerging story of your life?" 
~ Carole Hwgeduse

the week is full of anticipation and the ordinary. 
i find beauty in the mundane, even though
my focus is off and the timing is not great. 
i scold myself for becoming a bit stagnate in the
photo department but cut myself some slack because
of the beauty i find everywhere around me. 

“Transition isn't pretty, but stagnation is hideous.” 
― Nikki Rowe

i play old films in my head, which cause me some grief
and eventually i reach a point where i speak my voice.
i find that peeling the layers back brings pain and anger but also freedom, 
and joy and lightness and others assure me this is normal. 

“We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present, and future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations.” 
― Anaïs Nin
“Holiness has most often been revealed to me in the exquisite pun of the first syllable, in holes- in not enough help, in brokenness, mess. High holy places, with ethereal sounds and stained glass, can massage my illusion of holiness, but in holes and lostness I can pick up the light of small ordinary progress, newly made moments flecked like pepper into the slog and the disruptions.” 
― Anne Lamott, Plan B: Further Thoughts on Faith

two things:: 
we pack for a celebration, 40 years of marriage with our kids this weekend
there is exciting news from our youngest


“If there are no dogs in Heaven, then when I die I want to go where they went.” 
― Will Rogers
“To be fully seen by somebody, then, and be loved anyhow - this is a human offering that can border on miraculous.” 
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Committed: A Skeptic Makes Peace with Marriage

a day early, the week not quite done, 
how was your week?