knee deep in weeds

notes on living a life

Dear Winter,

Dear Winter, you about did me in. 

I already have plans to go someplace warm and sunny next year. Leaving you behind for a few days, because I will not allow you to do this to me again. You gave us record breaking rain and overcast skies, not to mention days and days of snow. I was so starved for blue sky and light, I upped my vitamin "D". It took some work to crawl out of that light deprived hold you had on me. 

The jokes on you however, because even people who have never noticed spring before are aware of her beauty this year. And she is putting on a strong show, even if she is a bit late to the stage! 

i find myself bursting with relief and stillness, goodness
and gratitude ; a coming of age story of sorts
(ha, at my age!). 
the days are illuminate in light, much of it coming
from deep inside of me. and i find beauty all around me, 
peace and purpose. 

"There is a quiet light that shines in every heart. It draws no attention to itself though it is always secretly there. It is what illuminates our minds to see beauty, our desire to seek possibility and our hearts to love life. Without this subtle quickening our days would be empty and wearisome, and no horizon would ever awaken our longing. Our passion for life is quietly sustained from somewhere in us that is wedded to the energy and excitement of life. This shy inner light is what enables us to recognize and receive our very presence here as blessing."

John O'Donohue

the daily pressure of taking one photo everyday moves into a guilty pleasure
rather than a have to. i allow myself to let my camera sit idle, but ready. 
picking it up because i need to rather than have to. 

"Creativity requires the courage to let go of certainties."
Erich Fromm