pain is a superpower,
it cracks me open, unraveling my very essence.
i spend years deep inside of it, fighting it while groping for light, for answers
lost in a hue of darkness.
i do my best to fake it, and life becomes laborious and forced.
behind closed doors i search and search for the why? because if i can find the cause,
the why will follow and i can forgive and move forward.
and it will never happen again. . .
i reach a crossroad and decide that happily ever after is a place for the apathetic,
those who stockpile their emotions and pain safe inside a vault, cracking it open
only to let something unsettling inside, ending up with stacks and stacks
of darkness melding together, cracked and unlovable.
it is a flat attempt at life. . .
today i don’t abort pain, or exclude it from my day to day
but rather, i allow it inside knowing i am strong enough to handle it
i discover that donning that superpower cape intensifies every aspect of life. . .
colors are brighter, senses heighten, days lengthen and love deepens
and every day is a gift. life is no longer flat, and among the darkness i find shadows
full of beauty and love.