knee deep in weeds

notes on a simple life


“Our bodies know that they belong; it is our minds that make our lives so homeless." 
- John O'Donahue

The week passes by quickly, each day a consistent routine, each day a gift. I spend time on my knees among the flowerbeds, deadheading and cutting back spring perennials. Some will power through and bloom again, others will shy away from summer's heat, putting all their energy into next years show. The hummingbirds drink like bar flies, emptying the two feeders on our deck almost daily. I sit and watch them and take delight in the fact that I am able to coax them into our lives with a bit of sugar and water. 

I start a new class and it opens up all kinds of thoughts, along with some blatant realities. I make a list and add to it daily. I see a clear pattern and wonder if I am brave enough to risk putting myself out in the world again? I uncover the possibility that I hide in the beauty of my flowerbeds, the dirt of the vegetable garden and the comfort of our home because I am afraid of being hurt. And yet, the list clearly shows I want more. 

I watch the birds, the butterflies and the bees. I see how tiny they are in the scheme of the world, and yet how brave. They are guided by the need for food. What am I guided by? What holds me back? Do I really have all I need in the compound of our home? Yes, all I need. But what about what I want? 

“How To Be An Explorer Of The World
1. Always Be LOOKING (notice the ground beneath your feet.)
2. Consider Everything Alive & Animate
3. EVERYTHING Is Interesting. Look Closer.
4. Alter Your Course Often.
5. Observe For Long Durations (and short ones).
6. Notice The Stories Going On Around You.
8. DOCUMENT Your Findings (field notes) In A Variety Of Ways.
9. Incorporate Indeterminacy.
10. Observe Movement.
11. Create a Personal DIALOGUE With Your Environment. Talk to it.
12. Trace Things Back to Their ORIGINS.
13. Use ALL of the Senses In Your Investigations.” 
― Keri Smith, How to Be an Explorer of the World: Portable Life Museum

The idea of documenting my findings in a variety of ways is exciting. This helps me see that there is not right or wrong way to do this. No one way that will last forever. I change, as do the circumstances in my life. So naturally the way I register the world around me will change too.  If I take time to really listen and be present I can feel it in my body, it is my mind that messes things up, getting in the way with doubts, resistence and fear. 

I wake up Sunday missing Basil and end up getting my dog fix at the home of friend. I come baring treats and he and I are both excited. It is just what I need. 

“There is a thing about the trust of a dog that makes up for a lot of heartache we take in this life.” 
― Don DeLillo, Libra

how was your week?