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notes on living a life

celebrating the season

"First we’ll make snow angels for two hours, then we’ll go ice skating, then we’ll eat a whole roll of Tollhouse Cookie-dough as fast as we can, and then we’ll snuggle."
— Buddy the Elf (Will Ferrell)

The dog and I manage only a few walks this week as the rain, a good book, and a birthday celebration get in our way. But the days we do go out I make it worth our while and he shows me his appreciation by posing. 

Yes! Yes I do! I like Christmas! I love Christmas!
— Ebenezer Scrooge (Reginald Owen), A Christmas Carol [1938]

Darkness comes so quickly leaving us in deep shadows and the light is lovely. There are treats back at the car, along with a long drink of cool water and we both go home content. 

Oh, Christmas isn’t just a day, it’s a frame of mind and that’s what’s been changing. That’s why I’m glad I’m here, maybe I can do something about it.
— Kris Kringle (Edmund Gwenn), Miracle on 34 Street [1947]

Each day I try to do something to celebrate the season, instead of just preparing for it. We go out one night, driving through neighborhoods, to look at lights. I watch White Christmas for the umpteenth time and he brings us home a gingerbread house for us to decorate together. I even pull out our worn-out copy of the Grinch and read it to myself. I drink a few almond nog lattes and he makes Chex mix. 

What i don't do is decorate much, or bake, or buy tons of gifts. 

He puzzled and puzzled till his puzzler was sore. Then the Grinch thought of something he hadn’t before. Maybe Christmas, he thought... doesn’t come from a store. Maybe Christmas, perhaps... means a little bit more!
— Narrator (Boris Karloff). HowThe Grinch Stole Christmas [1966]

I sit one night, the dog in my lap, and just gaze at our tree. i think a bit of Christmases past and see how the season grew into a bit of a monster. i understand I created that. I remember all of us feeling something was off when it was all over, but I really didn't understand what it was. I get it now, I missed my little boys, I missed my parents and my in-laws. I missed everything they brought to the table and I was going to do my best to create that perfect old fashioned Christmas.

Today I no longer feel I have to be responsible for everyone's joy of the season. (What a crazy notion that was). Instead I let it be. . .  I allow it flow and unfold and over the past few years it has morphed into a season of calm and beauty with some real meaning for all of us. It feels right. 

We’re kicking off our fun old-fashion family Christmas by heading out into the country in the old front-wheel-drive sleigh to embrace the frosty majesty of the winter landscape and select that most important of Christmas symbols.
— Clark Griswold (Chevy Chase), National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation [1989]
And there were in the same country shepherds abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night. And lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them: and they were sore afraid. And the angel said unto them, ‘Fear not: for behold, I bring unto you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people. For unto you is born this day in the City of David a Savior, which is Christ the Lord. And this shall be a sign unto you; Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger.’ And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host, praising God, and saying, ‘Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.
— Linus Van Pelt, A Charlie Brown Christmas [1965]

Basil and I wish you a beautiful holiday season. . . 

Take time to enjoy your people and your pets, eat a few cookies, and hang your stockings. Feed the birds and give to the homeless if possible, hug hard, and laugh and love with your whole heart.