knee deep in weeds

notes on a simple life

exist stage left || week 12

"Life is a balance between what we can control and what we cannot. I am learning to live between effort and surrender. "
~ Danielle Orner

the week is full of overcast skies and rain. 
i can't stop comparing the weather to my mood
and am thankful for gore tex and the dogs eagerness to go.
i watch for light sprinkles and slip my camera on
underneath my coat and we head out. 

"Practice the pause. Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you’re about to react harshly, and you’ll avoid doing and saying things you’ll later regret."
 ~ Lori Deschene

i spin out of controle one evening and something deep inside
of me snaps. it is the final scene and i decide to exit the stage
and play a different role. i do this without anger or the feeling
of failure. without shame or judgement. 
i imagine this is how a snake might feel after shedding
its dry, useless skin, after growth. leaving it behind
without glancing back. 

"We cannot grow when we are in shame, and we can’t use shame to change ourselves or others."
~  Brené Brown

she comes for a visit and i am overwhelmed with gratitude to have
her in our home, around our table. we sit up way into the night
talking and i hold on to her energy and wisdom.
come morning Basil and i walk with her through our little woods and
around the tiny ponds. she leaves me with open paths to explore
and a calmness that feels grounded. 

“The only meaningful thing we can offer one another is love. Not advice, not questions about our choices, not suggestions for the future, just love.” 
― Glennon Doyle Melton, Carry On, Warrior: Thoughts on Life Unarmed

peace and calm hold on and i am grateful.
the fear is gone as is expectations; both replaced with
open mindedness and freedom. 

"Life’s not about expecting, hoping and wishing, it’s about doing, being and becoming."
~Mike Dooley


This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they are a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice.
meet them at the door laughing and invite them in.

Be grateful for whatever comes.
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond. 

–  Rumi

how was your week?