knee deep in weeds

notes on living a life

this and that

“If we’re not supposed to dance, Why all this music?”
― Gregory Orr

i admire people who dance, people who open their arms
and move their feet, while throwing their heads back to laugh.
i admire those who say yes to fun, who don’t spend time
questioning the tiny details or running “what ifs” inside their heads.
they must know it will be worth it in the long run, even if it bombs.

i need practice in both.

“There was less than I’d expected in the rainy-day fund that Mom had kept in the bottom of an underwear drawer in a panty hose egg labeled ‘DEAD SPIDERS.’ As if I hadn’t always known it was there. As if I wouldn’t want to look at dead spiders.”
― Adam Rex

it is a hard week: i spend part of it building a wall against pain,
a wall that i seem to be able to build in an instant.
i take a step to bring it down, and light floats in.
and while i have never spoken of politics here in this space,
the grief i feel for my country is real and heartbreaking.

will we recover in my lifetime?


a few things that brought me joy:
halloween kitchen towels, teaching the dog “down”, a manicure, taking steps towards the light, movie night, carrots from the garden, and his understanding

I am over on ViewFinders today talking about my Velvet 85mm lens. I would love for you to stop by.