let it be

“When you see such photos, you can't help but wonder at just how sweet and sad and innocent all moments of life are rendered by the tripping of a camera's shutter, for at that point the future is still unknown and has yet to hurt us, and also for that brief moment, our poses are accepted as honest.”
― Douglas Coupland

fall is here in earnest, the nights are cold,
and the mornings crisp.
one morning i notice my breath,
as i stand in the yard while the dog cares to business,
i play with it for a bit, paying attention to how it dissolves and fades away.

i cull through a couple of hundred beach photos
and the dog and i start puppy school.
the newlyweds celebrate two years of bliss,
and i start a book that plays havoc with my head,
but needs to be read.

the days flow with ease and with apprehension
i feel as if my personality is split
i fret and wait for the other shoe to drop
and at the same time bask in the sunshine of autumn
as her colors dance around me

i struggle some to pick up my camera
and instead rely on my phone and my memory
allowing myself to be in the moment
rather than thinking about how the moment
might showcase on IG or the fridge

When people say "Let it go," what they really mean is "Get over it," and that's not a helpful thing to say. It's not a matter of letting go - you would if you could. Instead of "Let it go," we should probably say "Let it be"; this recognizes that the mind won't let go and the problem may not go away, and it allows you to form a healthier relationship with what's bothering you.
- Jon Kabat-Zinn


and because i can’t let it go, i do my best to let it be . . .

how was your week?
xooox

cathy slyComment