knee deep in weeds

notes on living a life

rare and awake

"Information is not wisdom. The mind, while a great and irreplaceable tool, can store instead of feel, can sort instead of understand,
can, like a beaver, build a dam of everything precious." 
- Mark Nepo

the week seems short and a bit off balance
but fall waltzes in and starts her beautiful dance
the air is cool and crisp and i breath deep
take time for myself and let go of
pent-up summer anguish

i work on not overthinking, to the point that to some
it might seem as if I don't care, and maybe I don't
but not because i don't love, but rather because i do 

i do this exercise from The Book of Awakening by Mark Nepo: if your mind
were a suitcase and could only hold five things, what would they be?
i play with it for a couple of days crossing things out,
fine tuning, until i come up with this: 
love, nature, self worth, quiet, faith
i write it down and put it where i can see it

“Breathe like a fallen leaf and think of nothing. Just breathe and let your heart and mind be carried, however briefly, by the spirit you can't quite see.” 
― Mark Nepo, The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have

a sweet invitation arrives in my inbox from a friend
and i give myself permission to start again
i work on boundaries, both my own
and those of others, becoming aware
of how i overstep and assume what is not mine to assume 

i savor the last blooms from the flower gardens
and the last produce from the vegetable patch
i fill the vases and watch the leaves turn
and think about the idea that his may have been
my last summer in this house, this home of 30+ years

i sign us up for puppy training classes, but the classes
are really for me, as i can't resist this face
and have already taught him bad habits


“But today you are precious and rare and awake. It ushers us into grateful living. It makes hesitation useless. Grateful and awake, ask what you need to know now. Say what you feel now. Love what you love now.”
― Mark Nepo, The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have

how was your week?