knee deep in weeds

notes on living a life

Wednesday || so long January

“Lots of people go mad in January. Not as many as in May, of course. Nor June. But January is your third most common month for madness.” 
― Karen Joy Fowler, Sarah Canary

January started off all fresh and new. . . 
and then turned bitter and sour. i am not sorry to see her go. 

Feeling a little blue in January is normal. 
~ Marilu Henner

it was not just politics (although they did play a part), 
but somehow i never really got my feet planted firmly. 
retirement while grand, makes me feel a little like a newlywed
(and no i don't mean in that way). . .  togetherness day in
and day out can be a challenge. 

You can't party all the time - especially in January! 
~ Neon Hitch

when confused i hunker down and take care of what i can control; 
i clean out closets, walk the dog, get to the gym, cook soup, 
watch movies and read. i let go of trying to figure everything out.
and then on day i wake up feeling as if i am caught in sticker bushes, 
but i don't panic, i just get enraged. . . voices are raised and tears may flow
and then, just like that. . .  relief surfaces and the turmoil starts to fade away. 

January is the garbage can of movies in America, directly after all the Oscar contenders have been out. 
~ Michael Caine

flowers help. . .  

and so does the dog. 

but mostly it is him. he listens, even if he doesn't understand.
he lets me vent and takes it all in (making piecharts in his head no doubt) 
knowing me well enough to know this is how i work.  he nods in agreement
and knows to not butt in with his version of answers. and, he is there when i am done
willing to go another round. and for that i am so blessed. 

hello February, 
let's be kind to each other! 

“Groundhog found fog. New snows and blue toes. Fine and dandy for Valentine candy. Snow spittin'; if you're not mitten-smitten, you'll be frostbitten! By jing-y feels spring-y.” 
― Old Farmer's Almanac