they hand you that baby and suddenly you understand
nothing will ever be the same, in an instant you feel so vulnerable.
you come to understand, in just that split second, you have given away
a big chunk of your heart and lost all control. . .
it is scary and so incredibly beautiful. it is a privilege full of
laughter and tears, milestones and setbacks, conversations and arguments.
for awhile you pull rank (the mom card) until it dawns on you one day that
you have raised three amazing men, (with help from their dad and others who cared).
and while each of these men is so different, each so unique,
each one now holds carefully that chunk of your heart, treating it with kindness
and understanding and lots of love. . .
and it makes you feel so incredibly grateful to have them in you life.
i caught this mama bird (in my mind she is a mama) bathing all by herself today
i like to think her mate told her to hit the birdbath, for a bit of peace and quiet this afternoon,
she so deserves it!