tuesday ||week 44

Lately,  I think about . . .  

my yearly mammogram
(it's been 15 years but it doesn't get easier) 
the holidays
(the food, the tinsel, the presents the wrapping) 
the idea of taking a trip someplace warm come winter
(even if I have to go alone) 
new countertops
(quartz I think, and white) 
buying some rain-boots
(because walking has become my saving grace) 
doing a very serious 365 project next year
(or letting it go altogether) 
how I might not ever completely heal, all that is broken within me
(but I won't give up)