i think today about how hard it is to inhabit the past and the present
and the future all at once. as a young mother i lived in the present
by force, no time to really give the past or the future much thought.
today i strive for balance and yet, often find myself caught up in
the pain of my past actions, losses and mistakes. this often leads
to faulty choices induced by past outcomes, making me feel
i think about how i might move beyond this path.
to dwell instead in a life which not only inhibits the right now,
but includes being generous and flexible enough
with myself, to be swept up and intoxicated by
what is just around the corner.