day 310 || gratitude
i watch the sky change all day long: fog, pounding rain, drizzles, patches of sun and darkness. condensation gathers on the inside of the windows and i find the unevenness of it beautiful. we stop to watch as leaves fall like raindrops among the density of the green earth. later, i see so clearly that i am sometimes like that sky; moods changing all over the place throughout the day., struggling with pain and resentment. later i contemplate how there is so much goodness to be found on a dark, rainy day and wonder what might happen if give way to that beauty deep inside myself, even among the deep pain that surfaces at times. i am grateful for time to process this, for conversations that lead me to see things differently and for yet another chance.
And to tell the truth I don't want to let go of the wrists of idleness, I don't want to sell my life for money, I don't even want to come in out of the rain.
~ Mary Oliver