She wanted to see my sticky notes, and I told her I would bring them next time. She listens and we talk about growth and how there are so many different ways to shut off pain and feelings. Later in the day I brainstorm different words for anger : agitated, frustrated, impatient, scared, irritable, hostile, nasty. I could go on and on. I sit with my frustration for awhile, letting it envelope me and understand there is some fear there too. The things I learn if I just slow down and notice! The sun comes out in full force and I talk him and the dog into going to the lake. As always they get way ahead of me and my camera. We have BLT's for dinner with tomatoes from the garden, their juice running down our hands and arms as we eat them. There are still six or so on the window ledge.